GagePat

Here's what I have to say,         When I was 20, I had an experience with a 15yo boy,  before you bash me, just hear me out,  He has all of his life stayed with us on occasion when he needed a babysitter, or somewhere to hang out while his parents were away, whenever we had parties and stuff, he and his family are here.  He sleeps in my room when he stays, and has for years, I have never showed him porn or tried to get into his pants, flirted with him in any way, and I wasn't even interested in guys at this point, other than one friend I had been with (helping each other relieve stress sometimes, we were both straight and horny as far as we knew)   Well this particular week may parents and his parents left town the same week, and as usual he stayed with me.  The first night he came over, and even though he had the full option to sleep anywhere in the house he chose to sleep in my room, (in my room i have a queen bed, a couch, and futon)  he has always been comfortable around me in his underwear, pj's, changes all the way down in front of me, ( and I have never really looked at him in a sexual manner, because I wasn't interested that way.)  The first night before bed, about 9 he stripped down to his boxerbriefs and stayed up till 11 in my room with me, watchin tv, I was in shorts and boxers,  nothing happened, the next morning, he was masturbating using a pair of my underwear when I woke up at about 6:15, I let him finish as I was sure i'd scare him and he would freak out and be embarrassed, I pretended to sleep another 30 minutes.  Well hearing him doing that and his light moans did give me a boner, but I just blew it off as nothing.  Well the second night, we were getting ready for bed, and he asked could he sleep in my bed with me, which he has several times when we didn't have other options.  I said yes, didn't think nothing of it, well after we went to bed, we talked for a while, and I told him "in the morning when I wake, you better not be masturbating again"  he said "you knew huh?"  I said yeah, he said he was sorry, I told him it was OK, but asked why he used my underwear, and his response caught me off guard.  "I want to be like you, I want you, I want be with you"  and I asked what he meant, he said that he has been attracted to me all his life and he wants to be with sexually, I told him that he was really young and probly confused, and he didn't know what all he was saying.  He swore he was dead serious and crawled on top of me as I laid there, he said I can't think about anyone else but you, and he went to kiss me, and I let him.  I told him he was too young for me and that he needed to experiment with a guy his own age if he wanted a guy. We argues and I finally gave in so I could just let him get it out of his system and we could get to sleep, after he had given me oral, He told me he wanted me to top him and I didn't do that to any guy, and explained to him I couldn't, i just couldn't then he said OK so can I top you?  Which he had been masturbating some already and he was hard and I had seen it, it wasn't that big he was only 15, and he had done gotten me off, so I felt obligated i guess to let him do me.  It was hotter and better than my old fun buddy ever was, he moaned as he released into me, Over a period of 3 months we had eventually done everything there was to do.  One day he tells me he was gonna start dating a boy, and that because of me and him and what we did, he finally felt confident and able to pursue his love.  The sex was absolutely amazing, and I loved it, he was so hot and amorous in bed, it drove me wild.  He has since dated guys and girls and I have dated 2 girls.  He sends me pics every now and then and teases me. 

I didn't go seek him out, I wasn't looking for that.  It was honest true curiosity on my part and his crush on me that drove the whole thing.  I don't think he was attracted to me because of my age, but rather the friend and buddy he had in me.  Did I enjoy it?  yes, was I wrong?  I dont know, I just gave him what he wanted.  I have never told anyone about this, I consider my self BI curious still and now that he is older than 18, he has been with me a few times.  I did enjoy his jock's body and muscles as we had our little fun.  Am I a pedo NO, I dont look at guys that age like that, and still don't. But what we had was what I might call special, or rare, I had the chance to be with a 17yo  guy a while back, and I just couldn't bring myself to do it, I am more turned on by guys about my age or 1-3 years younger. (i'm mid 20's now)  

I have regrets but being with him is not one of them.