Sexyboxers

My life expirences as a 17 year old have taught me more than common sense... Society always brings in the common sense point of view but this is not the case... Over time I have come to the realization that I am bi... Not because I get off on both sexes... That has nothing to do with it... What it does have to do with is attraction... Guys: I am a senior in high school and it always ends the same every day and it has every since I've started high school. I fall in love with so many guys to the point where it destroys me emotionally and then in the end I end up being a stronger person because I realize that not everyone I like likes me back. You get really tired of it because you wonder why so many guys are straight. It occured to me today that for one... A bunch of guys arn't comfortable with themselves being that way so that takes part of the population... A second portion just wouldn't be attracted to you... A third portion just wouldn't fall in love with you the way you would fall in love with them... This leaves the fourth portion the >5%? in a high school population of 1200+ without spliting that in half because half of those = girls the other half are the guys leaves just 600 guys... A majority which is "straight" and a minority that is "bi or gay" leaving >200 possilbly much lower... going even further to cut the chances of you finding anyone is the fact that those bi or gay guys are confused trying to figure out what they really want like me which I will explain in a second as to why I am bi... .5% of the bi or gay guys would actually be attracted to you unless you are the super jock then in some cases some straight guys might like you as well? JP.. but anyways... Falling in love and lusting for guys is exactly what gay is... Girls: The reason I call myself bi... IT's not because I am attracted to girls like I am guys it's because where I see myself in the future... I want a kid or two... I want to be successful with a wife and live the american dream... This is where it comes into play that I started "liking" looking for that perfect one that I can fall in love with even if i'm not sexually attracted... I figure that the perfect girl will in turn fall in love with me and it would not be about sex untill marriage which leave the fact that this is want...

Anyways all and all my comment to you is being bi, gay, straight isn't what you think. Being bi is choosing what you want with the reality that you are attracted to guys still. Being gay is the absence of having the choice or not even seeing their future with a woman like the way a straight or bi person would. " I think by my own expirence that IF it really was wrong to be gay which I am thinking about lately because somehow the choice to be straight is hard to explain because I have heard and belived that it wasn't a choice but i've broken those odds by expirence with guys in bed somehow it's not all it's cracked up to be in the end I guess this is where the choice comes in. "Do you want sex... Do you want kids? "I do believe the drive is there in everyone maybe.. maybe not. However it goes it still doenst = straight. Straight people may be curious but never act on it and let anyone know idk. This could be the case if it was then everyone is born with that choice it's just which one get's to be dominate as you grow older and how you expirence life that shapes your decisions. I know I don't need to explain straight anymore so I guess I'm done.. Haha sorry for the long message I just felt like writing down exactly what's been going through me lately to help better eveyone's perspective.

SB~

I am now 17. I will be 18 next June.

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