Thatoneguy

I dont know where else to turn, I dont know weather im gay or not I am turned on by hot skinny guys who sagg but some times a hot female actress will turn me on occasionally. I had my first gay experience when i was like 6 or so a friend down the road got into some porn of his parents and remember recieving oral and ever since then it seems like Ive been messed up ever since. When i try and sit down and think what I want out of life i get all bent outta shape I feel so conflicted because part of me wants to be with a guy and be happy and the other wants to be alone. I also get into the religious point of view homosexuality is very frowned apon and I have alot of religious friend my self kinda being one of them. Seems like my morals and desires are all conflicting with each other and I dont know what I wanna do or how to approch this. anyone have any input? *sad face*