SkylarStormdale

I never have enjoyed life, though - that's the thing. Being ostracized, abused, suppressed will do that. You know how I mentioned in that "fed up" thread how I used to be on the radio? I was a voice for myself and others out there like me, those who have had life kept away from us, who simply need some humanity. And what did that get me? Being jumped and sexually assaulted (not sure if the "R" word is too strong for SW here per the Rules) - for daring to run a news story on the air about racial hate crimes and hazing committed by several fraternities (forget the exact details - PTSD and this happened back in '11). I just recently got back to a point where I recorded a podcast and published it. But at this point, the loneliness and ostracism are just too much to bear. Hardly anyone wants to see any value in me to share any humanity.

Basically, by this point, I'm gonna publish my writings and recordings, get them into the public realm, and then I'm outta here. Maybe in the future they'll finally resonate and a bright, civilized, inclusive future can be had partially based on them (and others like me).

I literally mean a hostile area. In my case, Texas.

I do not have a family. Two people of my blood so much as give a rat's ass about me. Don't get me wrong; my grandmother and aunt are much appreciated and loved by me, but that don't cut the mustard - I am a 25 year old guy, and full families consist of more than two people. I know that's a hard thought to fathom, but I simply do not have nearly what constitutes the bonds a human like me needs. I appreciate your wanting to cheer me up; just know that the key lies in being a part of what I am missing; what I've been denied.

This is all 'real life', so I guess you meant "the physical realm". Ain't no one to talk to there, else I'd not be where I am right now. 

Well, man, thanks for the advice, but at this point what can save me is real humanity - real people seeing it fit to view me as human and having value - enough to include me as a real friend in their lives. Advice doesn't mean much when 99.98% of people don't see any value in you... recovery depends on human bonds... and, well, sorry, but there's next to no one that respects me. Life itself depends on bonds; I burnt myself out on doing stuff alone years ago. Done enough of that for a lifetime.

And yup, I do try my best, as that quote says. But only for those who break off some of that family-style... and that's hardly anyone lol

In a nutshell, despite always trying my best and putting in my 100%, most all I get is abuse, ostracism, and loneliness. I'm treated as if the simple things I (as any other human) need - friendship/family, inclusion, and the support necessary for my work and effort to bear fruit in life - are "too much to ask". Trapped in a hostile area and I have next to no one. Outcast, disabled, and on the wrong side of "the system". I'm 25 and I'm out of gas. Ready for it to be over.

Just don't let all that turn you into a right-wing jerk who disregards the less fortunate.

Pictures can be found on my Tumblr site.

That's good to hear. There's definitely a fair number of us non-shallow dudes on here, but for the most part this vicinity is crawling with dudes who would be out of their depth in a parking lot puddle haha

Well, count your blessings, brother. You could be one of us on this site who gets treated like that on the daily just because we aren't "hawt" skinny white dudes.